Saturday, September 11, 2004
soo i have started el high schoolo (mad spanish skills i've learned from mr kelso) and its just so. much. better. than sfa. just can't even stand how much better it is. i thought it would be weird being in like CROWDED hallways and it would take a long time for me to get used to it, but it really hasn't..
i'm just getting used to my classes, which are pretty good so far and now they have to go and change them all around (angry face..they don't have them on blogs..) but they are only changing my community classes, which is okay cause then i get to meet more people..its really my afternoon classes that i like the people in a lot.
latin is cool cause ms brown is funny and i don't mind working so hard, and theatre should be interesting, considering i don't like acting..umm but spanish is alright because mr kelso sucks..its a boring class but there are nice people in it..and geometry is just fun because he gives us like a 1 minute problem and gives us like ten so we can pretty much just socialize, and i like the people in that class so its really okay. english is easy as shit, history is going to be hard and i'm not a big fan of mr rodrick, and biology seems like it will be good cause i like doltar.
so there you have it. high school. its INSANE and yet with all these people i'm meeting, i still have nothing to do on a saturday night. whats going on here..i took a nap for 2 hours today. it was just the best nap ever. huaaahhh it was great. great great great...i haven't been able to sleep well during school so its good.
yay! i start dance on monday..but it sucks i have to walk to dance from school and its like 2 blocks away, and i have an hour and a half between the end of school and dance so don't know what i'm going to do. it will be alright though..i'll just go to cafe uno and do my homework or something. i'm so excited for dance. i miss my flexibility oh so much. you don't even know. and my feet are like..not injured and gross so there obviously needs to be some change.
i miss kathleen! but i love lorenzo!! but i want to see kathleen. because i miss that girl. maybe i'll stay for her dance class on wednesday so i can see her. well not something you guys want to know soo i'll go now! bye bye!
Posted at 07:15 pm by suicideblonde
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Tuesday, September 07, 2004
sooo sorry my blog was down for a few days. i was gone and i didn't feel like fixing it. anywayyysss yesterday was my birthday and some of my friends and i went out for chinese food and i made them dress up. it was great fun! except nathan got in trouble with my mom afterwords and i was like hmm that sucks.
i went to the beach with elliot again this past weekend and it was really really really fun. it was just nice to go before school starts and all. and it was really pretty one of the days. i looooove the beach. okay well i really am not in the mood to update but i though i should since ih aven't in like what 5 days? ouch. much lurrrve to you all.
Posted at 01:15 pm by suicideblonde
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Thursday, September 02, 2004
why do i never remember to update? alright so its thursday..and this has been a fast week. on monday i had my MRI done on my jaw and i was like freaking out cause i'm mildly chlostraphobic yes i suck at spelling and they like put you inside a tiny tube for like 20 minutes. it was boring. and the guy said that the disk probably ripped instead of sliding down like they originally thought..and if that is true that i have to get surgery fo sho :-/. i'm scared.
oon tuesday i dont think i really did anything..i hung out with elliot mostly which was fun as always....and we went to irving park at night before he took me home and i got bites all over my leg and they itch like a bitch (haha)..
yestreday i went shopping on 23rd with kathleen and only found a shirt..which is cute but i wanted to get more cause i had like 100 bucks..then i went to my grant meeting with my mom which was pretty good. the teachers are surprisingly nice and they seemed pretty genuine andnot just that fake niceness that they do around your parents. i'm sure they can be really mean but they didn't seem evil..then went around to my classes again and thats about it...rented a pink panther movie with my sister but it was one that we didn't like so we turned it off and went to sleep. i have THE MOST intersting life i know.
not doing anything today but i might go to the beeach this weekend and my mom says i can get my futon tomorrow.. OOH and the canadian insurance company finally reached a settlement for me and my dad foir the accident (not my sis yet though) and we are getting 3000 for me and 3500 for my dad but a third of it goes to our lawyer. and my dad says i can have 10% of the 2000 to spend on anything i want and the rest goes into my account. i was like woohoo! go pain and suffering money!! haha but yeah thats really good news. thats all for now!! har har harrrr. school starts in like 6 days. AAAH. my birthday is in...4 days!!crazy!
Posted at 12:52 pm by suicideblonde
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
meeting in the ladies room
heyoo there! i'm in a pretty good mood. except my stomach hurts and i'm kind of hot. lol way to complain kim. anyhoo..andrea came over yesterday and we went to lloyd center and were bored for about uuh 2 and a half hours cause NICK WAS TOO DAMN LAZY TO RIDE HIS BIKE TO LLOYD WITH JEREMY so we ended up having to see the 9:35 movie instead of 7:10..but its okay..
while we were in meier and frank at the benefit counter the lady was like i'm bored can i put makeup on you guys? and we were like sure whatever..and she put BRIGHT pink and purple eye shadow on me and i looked like a prostitute..and she put green on andrea and it was pretty. i was like fine i'll be the only whore. but it was fun...then nathan called me and was like kathleen said that you didn't want to go to sunriver with her and you just wanted to hang out with elliot not her. and i was liek bwhat? so i called kathleen and left a message and i was like i love you why would you think that?!! and she called back and shes like aaah nathan is such a little bitch he totally twisted my words! lol i knew i shouldn't have believed him int he first place. hes such a little drama queen..
after that we went to the movie and we saw hero and it wascompletely not what i expected. i thought it was going to be some lame martial arts movie but it was just really really well done. the plot was great and it was just filmed so gorgeously that i was like just like..wow that was so pretty. its in subtitles but it didn't really matter because most of it is fighting, which sounds like that would be boring but it was just so well done. agh i loved it so much! and i was with andrea and jeremy and nick and they all liked it a lot too. if you like martial arts movies even a little bit, if you liked kill bill 1 and 2, or if you just like really pretty filming then you should most definitely go see it. but only if you don't mind seeing only asians for 2 hours.
school starts in 11 days. its insane. i want it to start so much and i don't want it to start even more. i want it to start so i can just like get back into a normal routine and go to dance and make some friends in my neighborhood..but uh definitely don't want it to start because duh summer is fun. i love being lazy and having nothing to do. its so weird to think that i'm actually GOING to grant. before it was just like a thing in the distant future but now that i like went to registration and like around to my classes i'm just like holy shit this is where i'm spending like 35 hours a week for the next 4 years. its just so crazy. and huge. i'm getting lost.
this entry is long and if your reading it you are most likely REALLY bored but thats okay. much love to everyone!
this is trevor and jacob in canada. they were hungry. oh god that is so sexy i can't stand it.
Posted at 03:00 pm by suicideblonde
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Friday, August 27, 2004
so i know i just updated and i know i just did one of these stupid surveys that no one REALLY reads but i keep seeing this thing in everyones blog so i figure its "the thing to do" so might as well take it hmm? plus i'm really bored.
you are supposed to bold everything that applies and add three to the end
01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex.
02. I see a therapist
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I’m probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I’ve had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontation.
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I’m spiritual… but not religious.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen She’s All That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. No one really knows me.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm a hopeless romantic.
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am addicted to coffee.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday...or atleast one of them
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I'm extremely mellow...at times
60. I contemplate suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love school.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I tend to feel inadequate.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I sew.
77. I am addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts.
79. President Bush is a complete and utter moron.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I don't take criticism well.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the suckiest men alive.
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I don't like my nose.
91. I am very religious.
92. I still act like a little kid.
93. I am ridiculously indecisive.
94. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
95. I love music.
96. I'm in love.
97. I have problems letting go of people.
98. I tend to think with my heart more than my head.
99. I don't really like ice cream.
100. I can't live without books.
101. If my house burned down, I'd try to save my cats.
102. I hate the town I live in.
103. I hate wearing my hair loose.
104. I only dance when I'm drunk.
105. I still sleep with my old stuffed toys.
106. I spend more time alone than with other people, and I like it that way.
107. I love angst
108. I've written for twelve hours straight.
109. I hate things emo and angsty
110. I'm addicted to an online RPG.
111. I have had a cavity.
112. I believe letting go sometimes is the best thing to do
113. I can't live without my headphones
114. I like kissing the same sex more than the opposite
115. I have had to wittness a divorce
116. I fight for what i think is right
117. I'm related to someone famous
118. I like spooning better than making out
119. I've had over 10 boyfriends
120. i've known my best friend for over 4 years.
121. i think guys have it easier than girls
122. i am a p.i.m.p (no matta whatchu heard about me)
123. my friendships change a lot
Posted at 10:27 pm by suicideblonde
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aagggh i'm so sad! i was supposed to go to sunriver with kathleen this morning at 7 for the weekend but i woke up at 5 o clock in the morning and i got really sick and i was like throwing up every half an hour so my mom was like i don't think you should go to sunriver. ify our going on a four hour car ride, its not going to be too fun for everyone. so i called kathleen and cancelled and i was so upset. i wanted to go so bad because i'm not going to be seeing her as much when school starts and now shes going to be gone for like the second to last weekend of summer without me! i'm so sad!! aggh. oh and of course an hour after i called her i stopped throwing up. ldkfa;ldflksd so mad!!
so i had registration for grant yesterday which was interesting. it was so cool seeing all the people from middle school. wait no just kidding because i don't know anyone whos going to grant!! anyways...even though i didn't know anyone i got the exact schedule i wanted and i have two classes with elliot..and my student id is not too bad..i'm just like off to the side so its weird. oh well. and then i'm in a community with a couple people i know so thats fuuun. i swear on the first day i'm just not going to know anyone and i'm just going to like sit by myself and be a total loser. it sucks.
ooh but i think i'm going to get a locker to myself because i told them i was sharing a locker with brittany delano and she is going to go to late registration but brittany isn't even going to grant shes going to reynolds so i figure the paper will either get lost in the shuffle or by the time they figure out shes not coming everyone will already have a locker. so thats goood. and elliot is getting a random locker partner so if he hates his he can move into my locker. its all good fun.
well elliots coming over and i feel like complete shit so i'm going to go try and make myself look pretty so bye bye!!
Posted at 11:36 am by suicideblonde
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Thursday, August 26, 2004
okay well i saw this on jeremy and brittanys blogs and it said to do it if you have a journal thing so i'm doing it. because i have nothing better to do or say:
Q's // A's
If you have a journal do it 2!
What is your name? Kimberly
What is your middle name? Gibbens
What is your last name? Lockwood
Spell your name backwards: Ylrebmik
Date of birth: september 6
Male or female? female
Astrological sign: virgo
Nicknames: i don't know i don't really have many. kim. yeah thats about it. heem. from jeremy.
Occupation: Student
Height: 5'3
Hair color: blonde..ish
Eye color: blue
Where were you born? clackamas, or
Where do you reside now? portland, or
Age: 14, 15 in two weeks.
Pets: 2 cats
Piercings? two in each ear
Piercings you want? umm i don't know belly button would be cool but if you get pregnant it scars up really big.
Tattoo's? nope
Shoe size? 7
Righty or lefty? right
Wearing? hot pink bathrobe and a towel on my head
Hearing: my sister going through shells trying to make jewelry
Feeling: sick
~Favorites~
Color: turquoise maybe. or pink.
Food: sushi and chinese food. i could live off of rice with soy sauce. i should be asian.
Song: at the moment its cowboy take me away by the dixie chicks, mad world by gary jules, let me go by cake, and heres to the night by eve 6.
Show: umm almost everything on vh1 and friends and the OC. oh i especially like fabulous life on vh1. i don't know why.
School subject: English probably..
Band/singer: it changes a lot...no doubt probably.
Animal: who cares?
Outfit: american eagle jeans and white bp t shirt. and my sisters brown belt.
Radio station: don't listen to the radio that much..umm probably 106.7
Movie: uuh..donnie darko probably. and oceans 11.
Pair of shoes: umm my black slipper things. even though everyone has them. they are so comfy
Cartoon: the old road runner cartoons.
Actor: johnny depp..umm jake gyllenhaal (just to be like everyone haha) brad pitt lol. george clooney
Actress: hmm..kate hudson i know there is a ton of others but i can't think right now
Potato chip: i don't know i don't really eat chips. probably chedder and onion ruffles or whatever they are called.
Drink: umm..coke sometimes, and raspberry smoothies.
Holiday: christmas
Perfume/cologne: island kiss
Pizza topping: sausage pepperoni and olives
Lunch meat: Turkey. wait does chicken count?
Board game: uuuh...life maybe..or parcheesi haha
Video game: don't have one. lol crazy taxi cause its like the only one i've played.
Website: i don't have one.
Book: thats tough. the da vinci code maybe. or the long walk but the end of that sucked.
Number: 14 maybe.
Cereal: cream of wheat. or oatmeal.
Dessert: chocolate mousse
Disney character: cinderella probably or belle from beauty and the beast
Clothing store: american eagle or urban outfitters.
Childhood toy: my teddy bear. named teddy. yes i know i was creative even from a young age..
Carnival game/ride: i don't know..
Candy bar: dark chocolate lindt bar with the creamy chocolate on the inside.
Thing to do on the weekend: go to friends houses.
Hot drink: chai or vanilla steamer
Season: i don't know they are all good. summer is good for the sun, winter is good for snow, spring is pretty with all the flowers, and fall is pretty with the leaves on the trees.
Sport: i don't play any sports. never have probably never will. or at least never will be good at one. but i dance like everyday. thats not a sport its an art form but some people this its a sport.
Posted at 12:20 pm by suicideblonde
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Sunday, August 22, 2004
still my guitar gently weeps..
sooo today has been..umm..weird i think..sort of. i went shopping with my mom and my sister and kelly eamon and got the steve maddens i've been obsessing over for a while (i sound stupid i know but i'm just addicted to shopping...i'm a girl come on) and then umm read my magazine for like an hour.. yes i DO have a life..then people started arriving to my parents party so i was like AGH MUST LEAVE and then walked over to elliots house with him..then we did nothing pretty much except sat around eating ice cream and talking about what next year will be like. it was great fun.
i hate taking pills damnit! i feel like im' running a pharmacy out of my bathroom cause i'm on so much freaking medication.i just have like a stack of pill bottles. i feel gross.at least i'm not on vicodin anymore, which makes me dizzy and sick...thats always a plus..
every notice how girls complete obsess and overanalyze things? its terrible..i do this so much..if you have a bad situation you just keep playing it over and over in your head and try and find ways to solve it. i read about it in a magazine and i was like hey i do that almost every day! then it was like this is a really terrible habit to get into and its really unhealthy..umm just kidding? i don't really have any bad situations right now i'm just thinking back to some unfortunate occurences.
yay!! andreas back and kathleens back tomorrow!! we need to hang out all three of us together cause we haven't done it all summer and i think i'm going to hang out with jeremy and elmo this week too so i'm most definitely excited. wellllll im going to bed cause its late!! love to allllll.
Posted at 12:52 am by suicideblonde
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Friday, August 20, 2004
why do i have to be in the negative 10%?
sooo i had my tmj follow up appointment today and it was disappointing. he said that i was one of the 10% of people who don't respond to arthrocentisis (sticking needles in my jaw) and i have to take MORE pills and have an MRI done...which sucks. and if the anti-inflammatory pills don't result in anything then i have to get a mouth splint to wear at night and if THAT doesn't work then i have to get surgery. which is scary because its on MY FACE. agghh. i really hope it gets better or i'm stuck..
ow just sneezed and bit my tongue. i hung out with my neighbor natalie for a little bit tonight cause i went to her sisters college going away party and i was like 4 years younger than everyone..but it was cool to talk to natalie about grant and what its going to be like. i'm really looking forward to it. its going to be funny haha. well i'm going to go watch the olympics with my parents because you know i am just the coolest person ever...
Posted at 09:09 pm by suicideblonde
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get a little closer, arrid keeps you dry
that stupid deodarent commercial is ALWAYS ON. i'm so sick of it. so lets see i haven't updated in a few days...umm i went shopping at lloyd with alexa on wednesday and i sure miss that girl. she is just so hilarious and genuine that you can't NOT love her. then i saw my long lost friend kathleen for about 12 hours...she picked me up at 9 on her way back from the airport and then dropped me off at the max the next morning at like 10 and shes going on a water skiing/camping trip until friday. i'm G0ING TO DIE!! lol no i think i'll be alright. andrea needs to come back as well cause i'm lonely...
i've been having the weirdest dreams lately..they are so crazy. last night i had one that like someone was trying to kill this family and they killed the dad and then the mom and the daughter and then elliot was the son and he went to LA with me and my family and they tried to kill him and he was like super..uh..super something. anyways.
agh registration is in about a week..i really want to find out my classes..its just kind of nagging me in the back of my brain..i really really hope i dont' get into that business class..that would suck..
i was going to put a picture in this one but the thing is..i'm just too lazy.
Posted at 11:11 am by suicideblonde
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