Sunday, August 22, 2004
still my guitar gently weeps..
sooo today has been..umm..weird i think..sort of. i went shopping with my mom and my sister and kelly eamon and got the steve maddens i've been obsessing over for a while (i sound stupid i know but i'm just addicted to shopping...i'm a girl come on) and then umm read my magazine for like an hour.. yes i DO have a life..then people started arriving to my parents party so i was like AGH MUST LEAVE and then walked over to elliots house with him..then we did nothing pretty much except sat around eating ice cream and talking about what next year will be like. it was great fun.
i hate taking pills damnit! i feel like im' running a pharmacy out of my bathroom cause i'm on so much freaking medication.i just have like a stack of pill bottles. i feel gross.at least i'm not on vicodin anymore, which makes me dizzy and sick...thats always a plus..
every notice how girls complete obsess and overanalyze things? its terrible..i do this so much..if you have a bad situation you just keep playing it over and over in your head and try and find ways to solve it. i read about it in a magazine and i was like hey i do that almost every day! then it was like this is a really terrible habit to get into and its really unhealthy..umm just kidding? i don't really have any bad situations right now i'm just thinking back to some unfortunate occurences.
yay!! andreas back and kathleens back tomorrow!! we need to hang out all three of us together cause we haven't done it all summer and i think i'm going to hang out with jeremy and elmo this week too so i'm most definitely excited. wellllll im going to bed cause its late!! love to allllll.
Posted at 12:52 am by suicideblonde
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Friday, August 20, 2004
why do i have to be in the negative 10%?
sooo i had my tmj follow up appointment today and it was disappointing. he said that i was one of the 10% of people who don't respond to arthrocentisis (sticking needles in my jaw) and i have to take MORE pills and have an MRI done...which sucks. and if the anti-inflammatory pills don't result in anything then i have to get a mouth splint to wear at night and if THAT doesn't work then i have to get surgery. which is scary because its on MY FACE. agghh. i really hope it gets better or i'm stuck..
ow just sneezed and bit my tongue. i hung out with my neighbor natalie for a little bit tonight cause i went to her sisters college going away party and i was like 4 years younger than everyone..but it was cool to talk to natalie about grant and what its going to be like. i'm really looking forward to it. its going to be funny haha. well i'm going to go watch the olympics with my parents because you know i am just the coolest person ever...
Posted at 09:09 pm by suicideblonde
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get a little closer, arrid keeps you dry
that stupid deodarent commercial is ALWAYS ON. i'm so sick of it. so lets see i haven't updated in a few days...umm i went shopping at lloyd with alexa on wednesday and i sure miss that girl. she is just so hilarious and genuine that you can't NOT love her. then i saw my long lost friend kathleen for about 12 hours...she picked me up at 9 on her way back from the airport and then dropped me off at the max the next morning at like 10 and shes going on a water skiing/camping trip until friday. i'm G0ING TO DIE!! lol no i think i'll be alright. andrea needs to come back as well cause i'm lonely...
i've been having the weirdest dreams lately..they are so crazy. last night i had one that like someone was trying to kill this family and they killed the dad and then the mom and the daughter and then elliot was the son and he went to LA with me and my family and they tried to kill him and he was like super..uh..super something. anyways.
agh registration is in about a week..i really want to find out my classes..its just kind of nagging me in the back of my brain..i really really hope i dont' get into that business class..that would suck..
i was going to put a picture in this one but the thing is..i'm just too lazy.
Posted at 11:11 am by suicideblonde
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
oh yeah and i'm up at an ungodly hour of the morning. and i don't know why. i had a dream that my mom caught me sneaking out and she was really mad. which is scary if you know my mom well..its 8:38 and i'm bored. and i don't have anything to do. and no one is here. maybe my sister is but i don't feel like finding out. aggghh i'm going to go eat something i think..
Posted at 08:35 am by suicideblonde
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so i'm going to try this one more time.
Monday, August 16, 2004
mmm so i'm bored and my stomach hurts really bad...yesterday andrea came over and we just sort of sat around..we watched the original stepford wives, which was good but the end SUCKED, and the breakfast club, which i loooved. haha it was great. then andrea had to leave at like 8 this morning to go to camp and i felt really really sick and tired so i went back to bed until noon cause if i got up i felt like i was gonna puke...i woke up at 12 and got out of bed at 1..took a shower uuh read the drivers manual..umm thats about it so far...
i'm probably just going to sit around today cause i don't really feel much up to doing anything. its so weird lately..i could make an effort to get together with people but i'd kinda just rather be alone...i dont know thats a bit of what i enjoy during the summer..cause during the school year its just like constantly going and i always wish for just a day to sit around by myself and be lazy..so i'm trying to do as much of that as possible. haha.
okay well i put lip venom on my lips and they are burning so i'm going to go distract myself with tv. much love to all of youu.
Posted at 02:42 pm by suicideblonde
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
hellooo. i'm making another entry cause i'm a blog slacker lately...i'm bored and my stomach hurts...elliots coming over in a bit i believe..i'm having trouble remember what i've done this past couple of days..mostly because it has been so insignificant...yesterday iiii was productive and cleaned about a quarter of the sewing room, did all my laundry, cleaned out the drain in my sink, went for sushi with my family (yumm), burned a cd for elliot, went to fred meyers...and uh scootered to hollywood video with my sister and got 13 going on 30 for free...it wasn't very good i thought it would be a little better...
then elliot rode over to my house on jons bike while he was on the phone with me and he was like look to your left and i was like ahhh! elliots in my street! it was pretty amusing..i was too lazy to climb out the window so we just talked a little bit then i went to bed...
now i'm downloading cake and waiting for elliot...i should be cleaning the sewing room...or doing something else productive..but i'm not....thats okay though because i'm coool...yay i'm really liking cake right now...hehehehe. okay that was kind of scary so i'm going. andreas coming over tomorrow. oh god my cat is stuck in a long thin box. must go rescue kitty.
Posted at 01:13 pm by suicideblonde
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Things that make me happy:
-the summer (even though its almost over)
-elliot
-hanging out with my friends that are girls and doing random things (like making ice cream cake)
-dancing around like an idiot in my bathroom in the morning cause i know no one can be embarressed for me
-getting mail
-getting phone calls
-finding a song that you absolutely love
-peoples reactions when you compliment them
-getting complimented
-doing something productive
-knowing that things can only get better
-getting a new magazine
-the feeling of waking up when the sun is all over your room and you know you slept past 10 o clock.
-birthdays
-shopping (when you find really good deals..like at buffalo exchange)
-loving someone and knowing they love you back
-seeing your reflection at a random time of the day and being like yess i still look like i did in the mirror this morning
-that kind of laughing when you can't breathe and your laughing so hard you aren't making any noise and your eyes water.
-sushi. and chinese food. ooh and veggie tempura in sunriver. bomb.
-adrenaline rushes.
-meeting someone when your single and "clicking" with them. and the excitement of first liking someone.
-not wanting that excitement anymore because what you have is better.
-mm bubble baths.
-seeing a friend you havent seen forever.
-hugs
-kisses
-knowing you can be lazy for a whole day
theres a ton more but thats just what i'm thinking of at the moment. i was going to right down stuff i don't like too but that would be such a downer. much love!
Posted at 11:31 am by suicideblonde
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
blowing up my cellie..yo...
hiii everyone. its wednesday and i'm so out of it..and tired and confused..
on monday i went to andreas and my sister and i got lost on the way so it took us about an hour and a half to get there...when i did, andrea and i went to washougal river and it was hotter than the blazes (haha) and it was soo fun. i got more tan and the water was like CLEAN amazingly...and it was just a real fun time.
then we went to jack in the crack and got dinner and rented dirty dancing havana nights and the perfect score (yes we are cooler than you) and we watched dirty dancing first and then pretended to be cooban. we danced around in front of andreas big windows and were cool. yup and we tried to meet erun but hes a fuck so we didn't. but we still had a blast being secrut agunts.
on tuesday we did almost nothing, but we watched the perfect score and put the sprinkler under the trampoline and jumped around. it was great.
today i get to see my kathleenis!!! aah i missed her so much. its been too long. TOO LONG DAMNIT. but we're going to have fun and shtuff. well i've got to be off, but later i'll do a less pointless entry. much love to all of youu!
Posted at 11:35 am by suicideblonde
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Sunday, August 08, 2004
so the thing is i really should be updating but i juuust don't feel like it. i'm just really, really lazy. yesterday jenelle came over and we went shopping on hawthorne and sadly, i did not find anything worth buying...then we went swimming at grant pool which was loooovely and relaxing and cool and there were only like 10 ppl there...
then today i went to elliots and we went to the irvington club and swam for like 10 minutes and then went booowling (i won one he won one) yeah that was fun..then we took the max to lloyd and saw collateral which was reaallly good. yup. and it was really really hot today.
wee tomorrow i'm going to andreas and we're going to go to washougal river and, in andreas words "get our tan on" and run by people in the water and splash them and be like OOPSORRY then run by and do it again. hahaha bugging other people is so much fun. i'm excited. its going to be so scalding tomorrow so i'm really looking forward to being in the river.
yeah well i have nothing else to write and i want to go to sleep cause i'm jsut passing out.
much love to all! except some!
Posted at 11:34 pm by suicideblonde
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